The Haunting Mist of Shoulds

The Haves

kissed her
kissed her more
kissed her longer on the steps
been more honest
lied about that question
keep my mouth shut
opened my mouth to say something
just fought him
thought twice
focused on…something
kept better touch
moved out earlier
went away for college
stayed
left
decided what direction I should have went earlier
acted stronger
backed down
networked
went to Brooklyn Moon Café more
moved to Brooklyn
moved to Atlanta
just moved
made my move on her
apologized
stood strong
answered the phone
taught him how to be a better man
told him not to go
told him to spread his wings
completed school
let her come to me
went to her

The Have Nots

went to DC
stayed when I should have left
said I wasn’t in love
said I was
have been on the net when that call came through
apologized for something I wasn't sorry about/for
ran for that position
let ego bullied me
acted
acted desperate
used the credit cards
stolen that money
to depend on anyone but myself
shut down

I should just let it go