Betsy*

petite
hispanic
black curly-wavish hair
small closed to the skin nose ring
tongue ring (with a dice as the head)
glasses (almost like bifocals)
smokes Nat Sherman Naturals Mint
carries a .22 in her sidebag along with:
-lipgloss
-maroon lipstick
-a copy of "Don't Worry, Make Money" and this month's "Vibe"
-a small pack of Trojan Lubricated and a small of pack of Trojan Flavored
-a small bottle of KY Warming jelly
BX tat on back of shoulder

Oh...in case you're wondering, this is an idea for a character. Don't ask for what, but one day it might all make sense.

1L2U,
Prov!/

Luv

Damn luv
I messed up my credit because of you, luv
I hated being in love with you, luv
But gotdam if I didn't like being in you, luv
Was that too vulgar, luv?
Was that TMI, luv?
Fuck it, luv, it felt good, like real good
Until it ended, luv
As much as I wanted to get back in
You told me to slow down, luv

Remember when I met your cousin, luv
Thought it was you, luv
Looked real tasty, luv
Oh don't get mad, luv
Led me straight to you, right, luv?

But you know what it was, luv
It was your heart, luv
Bigger than the moon above, luv
Luv, did you love me like I loved you?
Remember when I said I hated you, luv?
I didn't really mean that, luv
But the pain you caused, luv?
Wooooooo, I don't want to go through that again, luv
Yet I kinda do, luv
just to see if I could take it, luv
Thanks to you, I'm stronger, luv

Don't worry, luv
I've stop comparing you to your cousin, luv
Do you want me back, luv?
Cause if you posed that question to me, luv
No hesitation on my part, luv
So, luv, you're ready to try again?

How does it feel?

So...
I'm taking a break
From my former "home"
We've been here before, right?
Job
School
NAACP
Nuyorican

And by even making this blog about it is well...dumb.
It's not that big of a deal
Got bored
Logged off
Lurked after a couple of days
Realized I've been wasting time
and 90% of us (including myself) are boring

So hmmm...get life going or continue to be boring.

Matter of fact, let's have some words from Mr. Neil Tennant of a wonderful group, the Pet Shop Boys

I came across a cache of old photos
And invitations to teenage parties
"Dress in white" one said, with quotations
From someone's wife, a famous writer
In the nineteen-twenties
When you're young you find inspiration
In anyone who's ever gone
And opened up a closing door
She said: "We were never feeling bored

'Cause we were never being boring
We had too much time to find for ourselves
And we were never being boring
We dressed up and fought, then thought: "Make amends"
And we were never holding back or worried that
Time would come to an end

When I went I left from the station
With a haversack and some trepidation
Someone said: "If you're not careful
You'll have nothing left and nothing to care for
In the nineteen-seventies"
But I sat back and looking forward
My shoes were high and I had scored
I'd bolted through a closing door
I would never find myself feeling bored

'Cause we were never being boring
We had too much time to find for ourselves
And we were never being boring
We dressed up and fought, then thought: "Make amends"
And we were never holding back or worried that
Time would come to an end
We were always hoping that, looking back
You could always rely on a friend

Now I sit with different faces
In rented rooms and foreign places
All the people I was kissing
Some are here and some are missing
In the nineteen-nineties
I never dreamt that I would get to be
The creature that I always meant to be
But I thought in spite of dreams
You'd be sitting somewhere here with me

'Cause we were never being boring
We had too much time to find for ourselves
And we were never being boring
We dressed up and fought, then thought: "Make amends"
And we were never holding back or worried that
Time would come to an end
We were always hoping that, looking back
You could always rely on a friend

And we were never being boring
We had too much time to find for ourselves
And we were never being boring
We dressed up and fought, then thought: "Make amends"
And we were never being boring
We were never being bored
'Cause we were never being boring
We were never being bored

Word...
1L2U,
Prov!?

Banging my head on the desk

Something has to give
Something will give
When you become more absorbed in a virtual world than the one you have to live in...
Something has to give

Don't Speak

How many times
must my tongue be tied
to avoid
being demoted
in the circle of
associates

If you value
my honesty
why should I
hold my tongue

Self-absorbed
Self-doubting
All in the name
of popularity

Tribe mentality
outweighing
honesty and
growth
Continued
to replay the
same mistakes
in sequence

The Truth and Lies Of Astrology Email FFWDs

Got this from a homie of mine (shakes head), but I'ma focus on my sign, saying how right or wrong they are.

LEO - The Boss ( July 23 - Aug 22)
Very organized.
-I'm quite the opposite. I'm quite sloppy actually. Bugged the hell outta my ex, but *shrugs*

Need order in their lives - like being in control.
-Well yeah...that way if shit fails it's on me. Without order, there is chaos. I mean I love me some chaos, but there are times when order is needed.

Like boundaries
-I like to know where I stand

Tend to take over everything.
-Not really, but if you're wasting my time...

Bossy.
-see above

Like to help others.
-I got that from my mama

Social and outgoing.
-could be if I really really wanted to. I'm more of an observer.

Extroverted.
-see above

Generous, warm-hearted.
-guilty

Sensitive.
-guilty. I'm an artist

Creative energy.
-see above

Full of themselves.
-cmon now...I mean yeah I think I'm the greatest mofo around and would be deadly if I wasn't so lazy haha

Loving.
-oh fa sho

Doing the right thing is important to Leos.
-Indeed. Shout out to Spike Lee

Attractive.
-that's what the ladies say

I do believe in astrology to a point, but man...
Wait...
I didn't really disprove anything, did I?
Just spoke about myself, huh?
Haha see that's my ego talking *winks*

1L2U,
Prov!?

Dear 1990 - 1992 Ice Cube,

I'm sorry.

There I said it. It's out of my mind, a weight has been lifted, and I can breathe fresh air again. Yes 90 to 92 Ice Cube, I'm sorry that I doubted you back in 1989, when I heard Straight Outta Compton. I mean you were cool, but when it came to the mcs in NWA, it went: 1) Ren, 2) Eazy, 3) you, Ice Cube, and 4) Dre. Like for serious, my dude, you were third on the list. Yeah I'm shocked too. Now don't get crazy when I say this, but umm...I thought Ren should have went solo. Chill chill chill. I mean "Quiet On The Set" was haaawwwwwwd. Man, was it knocking. I think I was amazed at how he flowed on that track, with a slight rapidfire cadence. Cmon, you had to give it up to him, he said some hard gangsta shit on that album.

But yeah, when you left, I was a bit puzzled. When I heard you had a solo album coming, I gave the "Is that fool crazy?" look. Honestly the only reason why I bought Amerikkkaz Most Wanted was because it was produced by the Bomb Squad. Back then, I was a huuuuuge Bomb Squad and Public Enemy fan. Almost anyone that was down with them got a pass, hence me purchasing your debut album. Oh what a day, fresh after saying goodbye to Rice High School and dreaming of performing with the Native Tongues at the Apollo, went to the local record store, to hold your cassette in my hands. After placing it in the player, I was pleasantly surprised, but was still waiting for MC Ren to drop his jawn (boy was I wrong when the ep came out)

So how did I come to my senses? Well tonight I listened to "A Bird In The Hand", "Who's The Mack", "The Nigga You Love To Hate", the title track to the debut, and "Dead Homiez". My man, Ike Moses mentioned "A Bird In The Hand" and I zoned out. Tripped back to hearing the beat selling malt liquor while riding around aimlessly on a New York summer Saturday night. Mostly played on 105.9, the commercial would be mixed it with the 12 inches being played by Awesome Two, the Dirty Dozens, and Half-Pint. Being anxious to cop Death Certificate (or did I "borrow" that? Oh wait! I had the tape and later borrowed the CD hahaha*ahem*). Nearly shitting myself when I find had a hard copy of that St. Ides beat with you spitting some good ass lyrics. Incredible.

But now, after close to twenty years, I've come to realize the error of my ways (and not because Ren's solo career didn't take off like I thought it would. Shit I didn't even think Dre would amount to anything. I would make a poor A&R). Granted you can't go back to your greatness
and your "I Don't Give A Fuck" attitude (man you want after Arsenio, KRS, New Jack Swing, Hammer, folks dancing, and Afrocentricity), but listening to the first three albums, I kinda wish you did. Supposedly your new single has you back in form, but like Kane with Looks Like A Job For, the album might be a let down. And yes I know people evolve and you have a family, no longer in the streets, and doing family movies (is it true you don't let your kids listen to rap? Jeez...feeling kinda guilty, huh?). Wait this is an apology haha, but yeah. So yeah, my bad, Cube

1L2U,
Prov!?